How to kill yourself without dying.
Ask your mother what her favourite thing was as a child, and watch her realise she no longer remembers.
Try to write five things you love about yourself without thinking of the five hundred you hate.
Post a picture of yourself and don’t delete it minutes later just because it feels weird or ugly.
Have a conversation with your sibling that doesn’t circle back to your broken childhood.
Let the sunlight kiss your cheeks without remembering someone else’s hands.
Eat lunch without feeling guilty for existing.
Look at old pictures of yourself without thinking about what you could have done better.
Try not to imagine the worst before you allow yourself to do something new.
Stop looking at your body like a problem to solve; try holding yourself like something you’re proud of.
Try not to have a crisis whenever someone asks you what your favourite things are.
Try to look at your father without rage or disdain in your eyes.
Cal.



I don’t think people realise how loud this kind of silence is
“Try to look at your father without rage or disdain in your eyes.”
you’re really smart and cruel and admirable, Cal